My thought might upset some people, but I just want to get something off my chest:
I desperately want to meet a recovered bulimic who isn't fat, who doesn't still compulsively overeat, and who hasn't just switched addictions (i.e. now they just drink instead of eating or now they are anorexic & don't eat at all).
That's probably a horrible thing to say, but from where I stand, it's true. It's just so frustrating & upsetting to try to recover when it seems like there is no hope of being recovered without being humongous.
It's probably just my eating disorder talking & maybe part of being recovered is being able to accept being overweight, but it seems to me that the few people that I have seen who are in recovery just aren't fully recovered. They just stopped purging and now they either eat or get drunk.
Is there no hope? Is there no one to look up to? No real life role models who can say, "I did it & so can you!"
If they are out there, maybe they just leave the recovery circles and never look back. I can't say I blame them.